I have been a bit absent so please accept my apologies….there are some exciting things happening over here but they haven’t come to total fruition yet so I don’t want to jinx anything.
What I can tell you is I’ve been submitting some of my writing to a few places–nothing huge–but a few article submissions here and there over the past month.
And guess what…PEOPLE WROTE ME BACK. WTF. WHaaaaaattttTTT?!
At first I was speechless.
I thought I would just email my thoughts and stories into the void and never hear back.
And I was okay with it.
Right now for me what’s important is that I am writing.
Back when I drank I had dreams of being a writer. My mom has always been my biggest cheerleader and I remember even as a kid her telling me she thought I should write.
But when I discovered alcohol I abandoned my pen (ahem..keyboard) for a quicker, easier fix.
I’d think, “Man, I should sit down and write about the places I love” and then I’d pour myself a double bourbon and blackout only to wake the next morning feeling sad that I hadn’t done anything with my night.
Anyway–during my heavy drinking being a writer was really only an aspiration.
But having this blog to write about the state I love the most and my struggles with sobriety has been such good exercise for my writing muscles.
I never thought I’d be able to get it together enough to actually submit something.
I know I’ll still have days of doubt, still have days of self-loathing, but for today I am grateful for my sobriety, for the desert sun, and for new mornings. <3